so i've spent the last week having the time of my life, enjoying the city and everything it has to offer.
and then it hit me last night:
i'm here to go to school.
this morning in class i felt so uninterested, in a way. sure, the topics we'll be discussing are interesting, but i know that i'll never commit myself to the work as much as i should.
maybe i'm just really moody because i'm stressed, sleep deprived, and dehydrated. i don't know.
all i know is that i'm feeling extremely homesick. ohiosick, really. i just don't feel like this is where i'm supposed to be anymore... i don't know what i'm doing here. wasting money, i guess?
i suppose it IS just my first day of classes, but i don't know.
i'm getting a weird feeling that i've never gotten before. i feel like it's almost worse than last week when my parents left me... or maybe i HAVE had this feeling before, but it was so utterly terrible that i erased it from memory. oh gosh.
i'm going to go listen to "nantes" on repeat...
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- alia
- "too much stuff, too many places, too much information, too many people, too much of things for there to be too much of, there is too much to know and i don't know where to begin but i want to try."
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awww im sorry ur feeling soo homesick right now!! hopefully it will pass :) im trying to visit u maybe in dec?? i have no idea.....but yeah classes are weird when u first start maybe yours are more difficult than ours but so far its been pretty easy....i think mva prepared us for adventist teachings and adventist schools but since u are at NYU i have no idea :) but keep trying and you'll succeed I KNOW you are SMART and INTELLIGENT!!! u made it to NYU!!!!!! that says a lot about u!!!!
much luv!!!
TXT ME!! email me whatev!! luv ya girlie!!
K
I LOVE YOU!
even though i'm not very fond of you...
keep a-commenting! maybe it'll help you get over the sickness quicker...
i'll start the topic then..
GUESS WHAT? i went to osaka japan last weekend!
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