what are YOU getting out of life?
and seriously, what is it that you're working towards? what brings you happiness? what is your life leading up to? are you there yet? close? why are you headed in that direction? do you actually love what you're doing? or do just want to want that? did someone tell you when you were young that you would be doing this? did anyone tell you that you have to do this? does your life have any passion? what do you feel? do you feel alone? do you feel lost, confused...? or does it all make sense? do you feel like you're growing up? do you think you're figuring everything out? do you still have the same dreams as when you were 10? 13? 16? 18? what has changed? why? were you happier then? are you happy now? things change, but why do some consistently stay the same? why do the stages in our life clash so violently? do you feel the clash? why do parents protect their children from a thing they have no control over? were you protected? are you glad you were? are you glad you weren't? when will people stop trying to act like they know what's going on in the world? does anyone know? do you know?
this started as something else, and evolved into that. completely different, yet a summary of the thoughts floating in this strange head of mine. 3:18am and none the simpler.