maybe, maybe i should learn to be happy here.
i'm so confused.
i have a loud voice in my head saying to me, "GO BACK TO NEW YORK."
and then there's another voice saying, "STAY HERE AND WORK OUT THE MESS YOU'VE GOTTEN YOURSELF INTO."
everywhere i feel so limited; and everywhere i feel so much potential, so much hope.
i just don't know.
i know it's my life, and i need to decide what i want to do with it. but i can't seem to decide, and i don't know when i will ever be able to. and that scares me so much.