7/24/09: high school

i was just thinking back to graduation slideshow. i thought i would cry, but i didn't. i think i'm finally over those people and that place. i don't really care about any of it now. no attachment, no sentiment, no joy, no pain. i want to go back to a simpler time, yes, but...

7/17/09: beloved friend

i look in your face and see what the world has done to you.

5/31/09: the rhythm and rapture

the way the bodies move, so graceful. so natural. if only we could all exist in those moments of sweet passion. surrender ourselves to the light, to the water, to the bliss that comes with the loss of self. the joining and sharing - the rhythm and rapture. the unity.

5/2/09: manuals

i realized recently that If Nobody Speaks of Remarkable Things and Serious Girls basically explain why i do anything, why i have done anything within the last 5 or 6 years of my life. i think they were [are?] my manuals for growing up. for being a real person.

6/21/09: eternal sunshine for a particular someone

you, come and talk to me when you're ready to talk. we sort of belong to each other. but obviously we don't. we are two of a kind, and i hate to lose this. but i will if we must. let me know one day what you think, feel. i may be ready to listen. i may not. but at least we had something. and if it was a good something, we'll have it again. i'm watching eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, call it inspiring.

a sudden, interesting, and brilliant idea. or an intense cry for help.

from now on, i'll only post excerpts from my actual journal.

"WHAT?! alia sharing her real and personal thoughts on the internet??? for who-knows-how-many people to read?! this doesn't make sense!"

yes, yes.

they will be short, cryptic [usuallysometimes], vulnerable, real.

generous insanity, maybe?

PARTY ERRRDAY!