let's all eat together in the hall, watch singin' in the rain, and then afterward have a floorgy!

so i thought it might be nice to read a real post, and not that ambiguous poetic shit i wrote lol.

this week has been like a vacation for me.

i've done so many things i never thought i'd do... my past few days, for example:

on thursday, a few of us rode the subway [what!] and got high in central park... and then we came back and later got high in washington square park...

friday, i danced my ass off on a REAL dancefloor... with random people... and random dance moves... for hours! and i shared more about myself with my floormates than i have with most of the closest people to me. weinstein 9B just rolls that way!

saturday, i [we] rode the subway [again?!] to the met and central park, had falafel, and went to a hookah bar [strawberry, mango, peach, orange, mint] mmmmm

the remainder of my time has been spent wandering the streets of manhattan
all the while getting to know and bonding with the people on my floor [floorgies ftw!]

this week has been so liberating, and so inspiring. everyone here is outrageously talented and passionate. i sometimes feel "unworthy" of being here, but then i remember that the admissions people saw something in me, so that must mean something, right? lol. either way, these people make me want to seriously study art, dance, film, or theatre...

i wonder how things will change once classes start.
i hope i still love this place.

there's really no way to describe it.

feeling completely lonely, yet completely energized
life races by and invites me, entices me
come this way
come this way
come this way and know me

growing up
never knowing
it could be this great
never knowing
fear and pain fuse so wonderfully
never knowing
that life was so much more

crowded streets, empty souls
violent stares, cold hearts
filled lungs

one more drink, she said,
one more puff.
one more friend she's found.
one more, one more
empty soul.

life is horrible, life is great.
it's all the same anyway, right?

one cacophonous roar,
one hell-driven mass.

come to me,
and feel my ice.
let me clench upon your body,
and never releash you.
but do not worry,
for though my grip can cripple your soul,
my talons are warm, soft to the touch.
and you will come back to me,
over
and over
and over again.

let's do the time warp again!

billy collins is funny, in a cool poetic way.

the lecture was better than i thought it'd be, and i liked a lot more of his poems once he read them outloud. i didn't stay after to get my book signed, though *frown* there was a looong line, and like he said himself, meeting the author is usually a disappointment, because the best you'll ever see them at is on the page. anything else after that is a letdown.

after the lecture, our floor went over to the rocky horror picture show.

so awesome. sdfjawojie;fadjk;awofi is all i can say right now.

i feel bad about not taking any photos yet... nicole wants me to make a video, but that's not really my area hahaha. we'll see what happens... someone come visit me!! i miss everyone desperately lol.

vodka, cranberry juice, and billy collins

so yesterday was A LOT better than sunday. i can't believe this is only my 3rd day in new york... i feel like i've been here for weeks already!

yesterday morning we were supposed to meet with our academic advisors to talk about the dreaded billy collins reading... but my advisor [patricio navio] isn't here, so we met with someone else. she didn't read the book, so we couldn't really discuss it. but i was glad to hear that, like me, most people didn't really enjoy the book. ugh but tonight we have to go to his lecture... which i guess it's cool to see and hear the person that actually wrote it all, but i didn't particularly like the book so it doesn't seem as great.

so after we got out of the discussion, i stopped by a market in the same building as weinstein and got a vegetarian sandwich and some naked juice.

in the afternoon was the presidential welcome and "reality show" at madison square garden... and some "special guest speaker".

we had our fingers crossed for obama hahaha... BUT we did get MICHAEL IAN BLACK!!!!!! that's right, ladies and gentlemen!!!! michael ian black from vh1's "I Love The..." show and other stuff is an NYU alum!! HE'S SO FUNNY!!!! in his speech he was like "when i first came to college, i was so HORNY!!! i was horny for LEARNING!!! ok, i was horny for sex too."

and then the reality show was amazing too. it was tisch students performing all these random, catchy songs about school info and health services... like dealing with roommates, sex, and suicide... it was so obsene and blunt, i loved it! there was a lot of use of "fuck" and "ass". MVA staff members would have cringed and blushed if they had watched! when they were talking about sex and stuff, they mimicked/reinacted common sex positions... it was so hilarious!! i REALLY wish MVA staff members could have been there...

after the show, my roommate and a girl on our hall named cassie walked back to the dorm...

last night was fun... we thought about going to one of the welcome week club parties, but we had heard it was lame... so we figured if we got drunk beforehand, it would seem decent. but in the end, we decided not to go anyway hahahaha so we [jay, cassie, some guys from rubin, and i] just wandered around the city smoking and sobering up. THEN like complete asses, the guys left us to try to get some! um, HELLO?! but whatever lol...

we came back to weinstein to see an interesting crowd on our stoop... lots of gays lol. this one from Columbia in orange skinny jeans came up and asked me where i had gotten my pants. i was wearing my new red skinnies... haha he like took down the name of the shop and shit lol. we met some more "fabulous" people before going inside and hanging out with some people on our floor...

ok this is a long ass post...
i have to go to the billy collins lecture in a little while, and then i'm not sure what i'm doing after that. our RA mentioned this latin dancing thing tonight, but i don't know if we'll get out of the lecture in time... but i suppose we could always look for the place.

but yes, new york is great and is quickly becoming my home =)

but FUCK i still need to get like 20 books for my classes. crazy, right?!

oh, and thanks for the love! you all make me happy =)

I'M HERE!!!!

yes, new york is my new home.

yesterday, move-in etc, seemed like the LONGEST day possible. my roommate [jay] and i both got here in the morning, so we spent the afternoon either lounging in our room talking about how gross it was or walking the streets of soho and the adjacent area.

more than once i got teary...
throughout the day i called nicole and ashley, and texted a few people... it's just weird being alone is such a large city.

i think i'm going to start doing what i did near the end of summer - just leave randomly and go venture by myself. i need to not be so afraid of being alone, and maybe then i can be more open to meeting people.

lol last night in our hall meeting, my ice breaker question was "what are you most nervous about?" and like a lame i said "meeting new people" haha some people laughed and someone said "i could help you with that!" so ya, i'll have to get on that...

orientation starts today... so hopefully that goes well =)

leave me lots of love! i'm in desperate need of it right now *frown*

hellogoodbye.

the last few days i've been getting all emotional and shit... i keep thinking, "i'm not going to be back here until december" or "i won't see [so and so] again for [however many] months..." or the always popular, "i'm going to be in new york... alone."

so yeah.

i meant to take photos of the new leggings & shorts i got the other day... but no such luck. photography is completely leaving me *tear*
i'm hoping i get more inspiration in new york. GAH I LEAVE TOMORROW!!!!!!!!

for kayla:

yelle's "ce jeu"

and i finally found the name of the orchestra song that's in that one old diamond commercial... from like 4 years ago lol. i haven't been searching since then, but i remembered it yesterday from a line in one of the poems in Sailing Alone... it's called "palladio" composed by karl jenkins. am i the only one who didn't know the name of it?! lol i'll feel stupid if i am...


i'm afraid i have to say goodbye to ohio today and tomorrow morning... i keep playing the beatles song in my head... "you say goodbye and i say hello"...

ok, i'll be honest.
i'm completely afraid.

haha prepare for my next post, probably me freaking out sunday afternoon once my parents are gone.

i'm just waiting for the excitement and anticipation to fully set in.

bye, loves.

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hello seattle

found this song today, and sort of fell in love:



obviously not the official music video, but i just love using youtube as my music player lol.

i've just been getting ready for school... i probably won't have too much to blog about until next week =)